When is Enough, Enough?

I have asked myself this question at various times in my life. “When is enough, actually enough?” Towards the end of a four-year relationship, this was a question that I had asked myself numerous times, and through it, I learned the hard way but came out stronger. I have learned when enough is enough for me, but it has proven quite challenging when helping others.

During my teaching career in the States, this question would run through my mind at various times as I poured into my students and wanted to help them with their home/life problems. Some of my students dubbed me "Ms. Super Sanders" because, as they said, "you care too much about us. You can't save everyone, Ms. Sanders." It is something that has stuck with me. One day after school, I was sitting in my classroom entering grades, and my principal just so happened to pop her head in. It was a day that I distinctly remember because I was upset that I couldn't help a student with a serious issue. With tears in my eyes, she told me, "It's a tough job, kid. You've done what you could..."

As I sit here writing this, I find myself asking the same question, "When is enough, enough?" Because, in reality, you can only pour your heart so much into something or someone if the recipient isn't willing or does not want to receive your help. I have found this to be true with some of the girls we have worked with. It breaks my heart because, at times, because they are so caught up in their turmoil that they cannot see what I can see: their future. And therefore, it becomes part of my job to advocate for them. But, to what extent? To what extent do I continue to go "up to bat for her?" To what extent do I continue to pour my time and energy, both physically and emotionally, into helping these beautiful souls? To what extent do I ______? (Fill in the blank.)

I do not expect anyone to have the answers because every girl is different, but sharing this with you somehow gives me a different kind of peace. I know I have to be led by the Spirit to give more and when to step back. It's not easy, and sometimes it drains me, but I don't think I would have it any other way…

Things to PRAY for:

• Please pray for us as we continue to form ties with government officials. We have received nothing but favor and are believing for more.

• Please continue to hold our girls up in prayer. They are hungry for more of Him, and although the changes may be subtle, they are filled with beautiful moments.

PRAISES & BLESSINGS:

• Over the course of the past two weeks, our girls attended a camp. As a result, three of our girls decided to accept Christ...it was absolutely beautiful! And, I know that all of Heaven is rejoicing.

• Last night (Monday), another one of our girls accepted Christ while talking with one of our house moms.

• In my last post, I shared that we were looking for another social worker/caseworker and another house mom. Within the week, we hired both!! They are absolutely amazing.

• Our second LC teacher will also be arriving within the next three weeks!!